Friday, July 13, 2012

We Are Infinite

Bliss (bls) :   perfect happiness; serene joy

On evenings after work, my routine is the same.  Go home, throw off my business casual attire and throw on some comfortable shorts and tank top.  Take my dog to the park to run and around and be a dog with other dogs rolling around in poop and dead animals.  Since my back deck has been finished, I have been generally grilling my dinners and sitting on my back deck to eat my meal and watch the sunset.  This occurs when its not 95+ degrees outside.  

Well yesterday evening the weather was perfect.  The city was quiet.  And my grilled chicken was probably the best grilled chicken I have ever made.  Succulent, moist, flavorful, and cooked perfectly.  That paired up with a side of Kraft Spiral Mac n Cheese created a splendid dinner.  So far this evening was fairing quite well.  So I decided once more to up the ante for myself.  Poured myself a glass of Champagne and made a small plate of Strawberries and Blueberries.  

Fancy pants I know!

I grabbed the book I started reading the day before, "The Perks of Being a Wallflower".  I had made it about 25 pages in and the book was not what I expected it to be.  However, "they" say its a good read.  I am not sure who "they" are, but Ill trust them.  

So I read several dozen pages more and I am slowly getting hooked.  Finally getting to the point where I am relating to the characters and actually caring somewhat about them. I forgot to add this book is based in Pittsburgh.  Which is the city I lovingly call Home.  So I get to the point of the book where the main characters are riding through the Ft. Pitt Tunnel and one of the characters is standing in the back of a pickup truck heading out right into the city.  Its an amazing scene at the end of this trailer which you can see in below.  

And in the book, the text reads "Right now, we are alive.....And in the moment I swear we were infinite."

Ugh.  I took about a minute to relish in those words.  

Eyes closed.  Sunshine emanating from the beautiful sunset warming my skin.  Perfect 70 degree temperature. Slight breeze. Birds chirping.  Me. My dog . Earth.  In that moment I was infinite. 

Life stopped. 

I soaked that in for as along as I could.  I was in perfect bliss.  And I knew it and I wanted to be in that moment and soak up every sound, feeling, and emotion I had at that time.    

And then I heard it. 

Notorious B.I.G.'s Hypnotize blasting from a cars speakers as it drove right through the stop sign next to my house.  

Bliss ended.  

But I will remember that moment where not a care ran through my head.  And life for that short period was as perfect as it could be.  

I hope to find more of those moments.  Even if for a few seconds before fleeting into the loud urban jungle that is Pittsburgh.  


  1. I remember not liking the book that much when I read it, but that was years ago. However, I did love that someone was able to write down the experience of driving through the Ft. Pitt tunnels at night. Maybe I'll give it another read before the movie comes out.